Still not sleeping...may be delirious...addicted to online browsing

(Back in the good old days, when she couldn't escape...)

Need to sleep...need to sleep...

Mac is in her new bed and sometimes she sleeps, but she goes to bed late and gets up early and it is driving me crazy! and now i have to sit with her in order to have her fall asleep. it is so stressful. and now i'm so used to waking up that sometimes I can't sleep even when she does. i'm sick, tired, and a bit delirious. which is making me a little crazy. i guess it's good practice for the newbornd days ahead, but i was hoping to stockpile my sleep to make it through.

I'm also addicted to online shopping. i don't actually buy anything -- i just pick things out and put them in my cart. i think that it is part of the nesting instinct, since most of the things that i pick out have to do with babies. or maybe it is b/c i know i can't really go shopping since we're saving money, so this is how i get my kicks?

Afraid of the Dark

Why is Mac afraid of the dark? For almost a year now she has been going to sleep in her own bed with no problem. Last week she had a bad dream, so I let her come into our bed. For the next few nights, she would wake up in the middle of the night and cry until I brought her in with us. Then she wouldn't go to bed without me sitting next to her crib in the rocking chair. Now she won't even go to sleep in her bed at all. She says she is afraid of the shadows and the dark. Even if she is in a room with lights on and the next room is dark, she is afraid. Poor little one.

Her new room is all painted and her furniture is coming on Friday. It is so cute and she seems to like it. I hope she will sleep in it.