Get in my belly...

Sweet Lord -- logic tells me that if I eat another thing I will burst, but I just can't stop. I'm so hungry! What is wrong with me? I heated up a huge bowl of leftovers for lunch, convinced that I would have enough for another sitting and now I am licking the sides of the Tupperware clean while simultaneously trying to figure out what else I have in the house that I can move on to next. Does anyone remember the game Hungry Hippos? The one where there were four hippos in a square, and each player tried to get their hippo to eat the most marbles in order to win? Let's just say that I've turned into the hippo champion -- I even eat food that Mac leaves on her plate for more than a few minutes. Made her two pieces of toast this morning --ate one of them before she even came into the kitchen.

At left: A view of a petite belly from a few weeks ago. Imagine this belly at twice the size pictured.

Countdown...

So we're under one month! Yesterday was Friday the 13th, and the plan is that Oliver will be born one month from yesterday. I'm starting to get worried and a little stressed -- I just want him to be here so that I can see him and hold him. I wonder if I start to dilate if they will move his due date sooner. Of course, I also want to make the most of this time alone with Mac and Tim, so I don't want to rush that, either. Really I'm just excited! We got a new stroller and some cute clothes! Mac is finally sleeping in her own bed, so I really feel like we are just about ready.

We got a date!

Yay -- the magic date is -- August 13! We are scheduled for our c-section at 9 am on August 13. I am so excited! I feel like we have an official countdown now. We had a good visit at CHOP on Monday -- we learned that his ventricles are only slightly more swollen and he has not fully developed the chiari II malformation yet. he is only 3 1/2 pounds, which is on the low side of normal, but other than that, everything looked good.

A new baby is a new reason to shop, and I am so ready. We have to sort through Mac's stuff and see what is left over after the Great Flood of '05. After that, I am ready to go shopping. We also have to get the rest of Mac's stuff out of the nursery into her big girl room (which is really a big girl holding space, since she doesn't really sleep there or anything).

Still not sleeping...may be delirious...addicted to online browsing

(Back in the good old days, when she couldn't escape...)

Need to sleep...need to sleep...

Mac is in her new bed and sometimes she sleeps, but she goes to bed late and gets up early and it is driving me crazy! and now i have to sit with her in order to have her fall asleep. it is so stressful. and now i'm so used to waking up that sometimes I can't sleep even when she does. i'm sick, tired, and a bit delirious. which is making me a little crazy. i guess it's good practice for the newbornd days ahead, but i was hoping to stockpile my sleep to make it through.

I'm also addicted to online shopping. i don't actually buy anything -- i just pick things out and put them in my cart. i think that it is part of the nesting instinct, since most of the things that i pick out have to do with babies. or maybe it is b/c i know i can't really go shopping since we're saving money, so this is how i get my kicks?

Afraid of the Dark

Why is Mac afraid of the dark? For almost a year now she has been going to sleep in her own bed with no problem. Last week she had a bad dream, so I let her come into our bed. For the next few nights, she would wake up in the middle of the night and cry until I brought her in with us. Then she wouldn't go to bed without me sitting next to her crib in the rocking chair. Now she won't even go to sleep in her bed at all. She says she is afraid of the shadows and the dark. Even if she is in a room with lights on and the next room is dark, she is afraid. Poor little one.

Her new room is all painted and her furniture is coming on Friday. It is so cute and she seems to like it. I hope she will sleep in it.